Okay honestly, the month of July had been a really bad one. Received lots of bad news, had to rush for too many projects, had multiple arguments with groupmates, spent a lot of money without equal part coming in...& the list goes on.

Right now, the madness hasn't stop. But hopefully, as we venture into a new month, things will start looking up.

Till the time I get a breather, I'll just leave my days in my memory.

I still remember how I used to update every day of my life here, how this used to be a really personal space, how this was a perfect replacement for my diary. Now, that can only be a luxury.

The only times in July worth remembering...

Pretty? ^^

Guess what guys? I got back from BKK on Monday & was so screwed up over my lost phone until today. Even after getting another one. Because I didn't know my com had backup & I thought all was lost & I had to start over, AFTER spending another $xxx on ANOTHER iphone. Thank god, all is saved. Every single thing in my previous iphone had been saved & backed. So tralalala~

Pretty stoked to get back to school & revive all the projects I had left hanging while being unreachable. Meanwhile, I will try to not be lazy & upload the pictures taken in BKK & post a better update than this. Didn't really take that many pictures though cus I lost my holiday mood the moment I lost my phone :/

Alrighty! Another time honeys! ^^

Thy Weekend

Remember how I keep harping on how busy I was for the past months? Yeah it was so bad I hardly have time to breathe, the most happening shit were mostly only mahjong sessions crammed somewhere in between late nights.

Now, holidays are here and my whatsapp is still flooded with meetings, tasks to do, projects discussions, yada yada.

So my point is, this weekend was hell good for me.

Met up some old friends in the evening for our pre-arranged K session. Which was crazy for me because honestly, I can't remember when was the last time I sang K. Had Katong Laksa for dinner and then pool. Singles + Doubles.

Impromtu decision to join them for clubbing afterwards and the rest is history. Like BAM here I am again after months. K Baobei came down to join us as well :)

Pictures taken. Only 3 shown because it was nearing the end and I look completely horrible.

So right now as my poor soles are still aching from wearing heels for far too long, much less dancing in them all night, and my ears are still ringing from too much blast, kakis just called for MJ!

It felt surreal. I really can't believe I am going to do all of the activities I enjoy most in one short weekend. This should be the life yo.

Yeah it felt good to finally unwind for 2 days before going back to the crazy world again.

And...being able to watch Big Bang Alive Tour in Sg would make this year one of my best I'm sure ^^ 

So till then peeps!~

Mind of my mind

I'm sorry I've been gone for far too long. This space used to bring back so many memories, until one day I couldn't handle how some of them hurt so bad, and how some of them suffocate.

I wanted to hit refresh. I needed a cleaner slate. So I started everything from scratch again. And right now, it feels like I'm back to square one.

Being busy was good. In fact it felt great when everyday was crammed with shitloads of stuff. Things to do, things to complete, things to buy...The list never ends, and everyday I wake up knowing I have at least a few activities/events/tasks to do. I've never felt this good in ages. I've never felt this good being busy.

And then the same shit happens. A few weeks into some shit going on, something hits the mind, you start to let your mind wander, and it goes into places you don't want to end up in.

And then shit hits the fan....

Dug up some old tumblr pictures I had saved. They say a million. About my life, and I'm pretty sure yours too.

Problem? I'm stuck in this rut where I keep thinking there should be something more. Something magical should be happening. Something is lacking.

Perhaps it's love. Perhaps it's pursuing lifelong dreams. Perhaps it's finally finding footing in life.

I can't quite put my finger on it, I just wished sometimes, answers come falling in my lap during moments like this.

Have you ever felt like this? Not happy, yet not sad. Can't smile, yet can't cry. You feel down, but not exactly either. You're just amongst a million contradictory emotions. Suddenly no one in your contact list seems to cut it, because you don't even know how to talk, or what to say, no matter how much you wanna get that shit off your mind.

And you just wish a miracle will happen; someone, who completely understands what you are going through, what you are thinking and how you are feeling without you saying anything, to just appear and give you the right answers. And a hug.

Damn. Now I know where those shows get the "perfect/absolute" boyfriend concept from.

And I realise it's always during moments like these when I wanna go up to the stars and whisper to the brightest one, "I miss you".