Mindless

Hello! Okay basically I am just hungry and whiling  my time away while the boyf is napping.

I know I promised a Big Bang post. I'll try to post that up ASAP. But anyway most of the pictures I took are of lousy quality, where either the lights are too bright and reflecting off the boys' handsome faces, or I took a side profile of them because I was too star-strucked when they were looking in my direction.

Lots of work to be cleared this week, school's FYP is finally getting some headway. Have been really really cash-strapped these days so if any of you happen to know of temporary events that need some people & can pay by the end of the event, do let me know! :)

Haven't been taking much photos lately, but follow me on Instagram (@Jolynique) for random snapshots of my everyday life.

Okay I am really just waiting for the boy to wake up.

BYE~!

Insecurities

I had originally wanted to blog about the Big Bang concert & schedule a post to be up this Friday, but I just did something really stupid & now I lost the mood to even blog. (Yes, I know the irony, but I wanted to do happy things.)

Shall squeeze in some time this weekend to do up the Big Bang Alive Tour post because it's one hell of an event I wanna keep in memory forever & having a physical record of it will enable me to constantly relieve those moments.

Nothing much has been done this week, except pool trainings. Everything else is pretty much going on a downhill but people on the hill with me are all trying really hard to climb back up, so I'll try not to let anyone down & bite the bullet as well.

Okay seriously, fuck. I just did something really really stupid, something I've told myself never ever ever to do again because it will always ruin something, hurt somebody, or result in something negative, but I did it. I don't know if it exists in every female, or it's just Scorpios in general. We just have this bugging voice that constantly reminds us not to trust anybody until they prove that they deserve our trust. But in the past, people whom have proven worthy turned out breaching my trust in the end so I've just completely stopped believing. Like literally cold turkey. It happened to even really close friends who have stuck around for years, because it scared me & hurt so bad.

I remember a lecturer's story:

Man A asked to borrow $10 from Man B, claiming he would return it the next day. Man B loaned it to him, & true enough, Man A kept his promise. 1 year down the road, Man A borrowed $100 from Man B, claiming he would return it the following week. Man B hesitated, but decided to give him the benefit of the doubt as he kept to his promise the last time. True enough, Man A kept to his promise & returned the $100 to Man B.

Not long after, Man A asked for a loan of $5, 000. As Man B has formed a good impression of Man A, thinking he is a man of his word, he lend it to him without hesitation. Man A returned the money after a month or so. Then one day, Man A asked for a loan of $250, 000 to set up a business. By now, Man B trusts Man A completely & loaned it to him despite the huge amount. & guess what? Man A ran away with the money.

Okay it wasn't the exact story, but somehow the gist of it is there. Point is, people who seem so trustworthy could always be plotting something against you, and it's always better to be safe than sorry.

Not that I no longer trust the people around me, or this person anymore, but I just feel kind of stupid, like what I felt wasn't exactly what it was. I just feel cheated.

Maybe I trust people too quickly. Maybe I trust people too easily. But is the world out there really that scary? Are there no pure kind souls?

I knew I shouldn't have done it in the 1st place, which is what's causing all these insecurities in the 1st place. & you all probably don't even know shit I'm talking about, but pardon me I just need to rant.

I'll try to squeeze in a happy post this weekend, and probably schedule some down the week in case I'm busy or too lazy to blog. I really want this space to be as lively as before, filled with both sorrows & happiness.

Okay fuck I'm too screwed over to blog. & this post is too wordy anyway.

Have a good night kiddos.

Wedding Bells

Yesterday, on the 26th of September was the boy's bro's wedding day, & I was pretty hyped because it had been long since I'd last attended a wedding dinner. 

Finally broke in my new heels from BKK 3 months ago. Such a pretty baby, but it got ruined by the rain. :( 

The sole sticker peeled off & bits off the glue kept getting onto my feet sticking them together with the heels. Anybody who knows anywhere that sells sole stickers, please please please let me know okay? Actually I had found some retailing in Guardian, but they came in an ugly grey leopard print - I would very much prefer plain ones.

Finally had a chance to dress up & doll up so I broke out my falsies & finally put on some liner. 

It's really pretty rare that I doll up these days & even more rare that the boyf is in formal wear that I started snapping pictures of us both on the iPhone & camera. 

OOTD: Dress - The Editor's Market, Cardigan - Genting, Necklace - Gift, Watch - Seiko

Was wearing my favourite dress from Editor's Market that I couldn't stop gushing about after I wore it to CMCC D&D 2011. But anyway the boyf chose this one after I shortlisted like 3 dresses, so I guess we have similar (exceptionally good) taste?  

& If you know me well, given a chance when I put in effort to doll up...

CAMWHORE TIME!!!

These are obviously not all but because I might have raped the snap button a bit too much, now that I have uploaded my pictures & found going through all of them a hassle, I just chose these 3 to add filters.

The upcoming picture will prove just how self-obsessed I really am.

Yes all those in a span of...5 mins. Have I broken a record yet? :x

The boyf just can't stop laughing at me.

The wedding was rather simple, sweet & short. & I guess almost all weddings are somewhat similar; Food and photo spamming. The food never stops coming right up to the last dish, and there was a lot of photo taking.

I overheard the other wedding dinner that was held right next to us having a video clip, & I vaguely remembered seeing one at one of my relative's wedding too. Just the thought of looking at pictures that dictate a couple's journey makes me smile. Yes, we girls are suckers for things like these.

Didn't manage to capture any photos using my camera/phone because I was using their family's camera to snap pictures during the ROM & during the dinner, I was just really focusing on what they were saying to even remember to take photos. 

Mummy also just informed me that another relative of mine is getting married this December 2nd.

2 sad events last year, 2 happy events this year. I'm starting to wonder if this is purely a coincidence or my beloved granny is trying to make me feel happier. But anyway, it's time to start sourcing for another dress to wear for that special occasion. :)

Tomorrow's BIG BANG ALIVE TOUR, & I'm still too excited to sleep. It's going to be the 1st live concert I'm going to, & just the thought of TOP... *melts*.

Sissy just passed me a TOP fan & told me to write whatever I want & throw it up onto the stage tomorrow, claiming that a lot of people did it at the Super Junior concert. Can anybody tell me if any SuJu member added you on Twitter or actually called you back? Lol.

It probably wouldn't work anyway but I might still do it for the sake of it because after all, YOLO right? ;)

Alright, I shall go put on a mask before zonking out. After tomorrow, there's hell lot of work to do & I'll need all the sleep I can have. 

Good night world.

X

Melty Kisses

Please do pardon the weak title for this post because I have no idea what to name it but I thought my posts will look better with a title, so yeah.

Pictures of the cakes I mentioned in my last post:

Brownie Cheesecake

Hazelnut Praline <3 p="p">

Yeah, super delish we polished up every single crumb.

Anyway nothing much has been up this week, & it's very very rare I get to have so many days to laze around & practically do nothing so I am cherishing every single moment like these. Though I did have a lot of pool training, on Wed, Fri & Sat. Hell, it felt pretty amazing to be able to improve, even if it's a little. 

Otherwise, have been staying over at the boy's & almost every day I wake up to brunch like this: 

Yes, cooked specially by the boy. Are you jelly?

Lol.

Sunday was the semi-finals & finals of Monstercue's Regulars Annual 8-ball Tournament.

And, wait for it.....

The boyf clinched Champion! ^^ Yes, I am very proud of him, and it made waking up at dawn & all that walking a lot more worthwhile.

Went out to meet Suwern baby on Monday b/c it'd been too long since we last met on her birthday. Accompanied her to settle her work stuff before heading to get my manicure done in time for boy's brother's wedding.  ;)

OOTD: Tank Dress - Mango, Top - BKK, Bracelet - Unavailable blogshop, Bag - Whatisdope.com,

Watch - Seiko, Necklace - BKK

The picture is really dark anyway because it's an all-black outfit, but I really liked what I wore on that day a lot, so I'm posting this for my own future reference.

Mani of the day: OPI Warn & Fuzzie

Had a really hard time trying to choose a pretty color, and it sure doesn't help that both Werny & I are both fickle people. Had a pretty decent catchup session though short, & I can't wait till the next time again. Have to save up some cash for a shopping trip together ASAP okay baby? 

After that, rushed down to Yishun Safra to watch boyf playing for bowling league, & b/c he said he wasn't feeling very confident, I got Custard Buns from Bao Jin Tian to motivate him since he liked them so much. Don't know when the results will be out but I really hope his team gets into Top 5.

Okay the wedding dinner is tomorrow & I just confirmed to be attending the ROM ceremony in the morning as well few hours ago. Which means I am left with...4 hours of sleep. Oh crap.

Alright to end off, here's a camwhore shot; which by the way is really rare because I hardly camwhore nowadays...which is also really rare.

Did I just mindfuck you? ;b